I am cautiously starting this blog in hopes that writing about my experiences and past traumas will help me to heal. This methodology has worked for me in the past, but this time I feel extremely hesitant. The last time I wrote about my emotions, anxieties, and fears, I was wading through a medical trauma. I remained very aware throughout the entirety of my illness that nobody blamed me for what was happening. Friends, family, and even strangers were nothing but sympathetic and supportive. Because of this, I felt comfortable being vulnerable and opening up.
This time, the topic I need to work through isn’t as cut and dry. It isn’t an experience that many people openly discuss or even admit they can relate to — sexual assault. It can be a hard-to-read topic that is often thought of as taboo. Victims of sexual assault rarely come forward for fear of being met with clarifying, often accusatory, questions that imply they were somehow to blame for their assaults. This is largely why I haven’t written about these experiences before.
In this #metoo era, though, I am hopeful that I can write about my traumas and the effects they have had on my emotional well-being and my psyche without judgement.
Warning: this blog will likely be graphic and triggering at times, so proceed with caution. It will focus heavily on PTSD and, where appropriate, the details of the assaults that caused the disorder.
Talking Through Trauma 